Like a plan
Like a plant that has not been watered sufficiently, lack of love and nurture in early life is deeply damaging to one’s sense of worth.
It is likely that when growing up you did not get what you needed. You may have been emotionally, physically, and or sexually abused. You may suffer from symptoms of trauma or post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).
You may, or may not, be aware of the source of your problems. However, I can assure you that you have many gifts to give to the world.